I don’t like being in groups. But I have been trying to be involved in a bipolar group recently. I don’t know what to think about it. Mainly I think it is a group of extra damaged people trying to cling to each other while they are all drowning.
But when I am with my non-bp friends they have no clue and I feel like the baby of the group. The one labeled the fucked up one.
Isn’t it just as wrong to be the one in the support group that feels superior because I don’t lay around crying all day or letting my money run through my fingers like water?
So the jury is out on whether it is beneficial for me to be involved in this support group, which by the ways feels a hell of a lot more like a club then a support group. I don’t want to be part of the bp club. Do you know what I mean?
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April 8, 2008 at 3:36 pm
zuzuernie
When I was in the loony bin I really enjoyed group time. But, we weren’t all bipolar. I don’t think there is anything wrong with feeling like you are the sanest one there. As you said, sometimes those people are the only ones who can even phathom what you are going through.
April 9, 2008 at 5:09 am
my sad alter ego
Heh, I love this post. The drowning group metaphor, and of course, the club nobody wants to be in.
April 14, 2008 at 7:18 pm
Carolyn Gwiazdzinski
Hi, I am not sure who I am writing to. I am a conscious empath and was very depressed to the point of being considered bipolar, my emotions went from one extreme to the other, I was also very highly empathic as a kid and very highly intuitive at the same time. I grew up in a house where the family dynamics and communication skills were non existent and always abusive, in one form or another. Found an amazing counselor at 25, that taught me what I needed to know and taught me how to begin my healing process. Being highly intuitive, I found that this part of life was demanding attention also…I soon developed this ability. 25 years later, turns out I was an empath, with a high level of intuition, which explains the extreme emotional highs and lows. This healing became a journey, that assisted me in developing tools to function on a regular basis…now with all of this being said…sleep is very important, especially in the afternoon, for an hour or two…keeps the day in balance and keeps the emotions on an even keel. Large groups suck big time…all the emotional energy and thoughts are running all over the place, especially in crowded stores however. You mentioned the groups you were involved in and the reason neither group worked, is because there needs to be a focused intention on connecting emotions, awareness and intuition all at the same time and in order for the group to really succeed at healing, the person running the group needs to have an understanding of how each person is moving through their individual spaces and how each person interconnects with each other…there needs to be a high level of intuition for the group to function in a grounded, and balanced manner. There are definite tools to work with to discover your boundaries and do a regular check in for your own personal space…being empathic takes alot of work and participation, but it is possible to get there. Whoever I just wrote to, I hope this assists you in someway, for what you are looking for and the journey you are on. Peace, Carolyn