Money is a huge trigger for me.  When I hear or know that we are short on money or have a big bill that we have to pay and I can’t pay it I freak out.  It isn’t that I think I can’t work it out.  I am an expert when it comes to managing our money and making it work for us.  It seems to be the surprise.  I just feel so out of control when it is happening.

I have a huge need to have control over my life.  When I am not in control then I become completely out of control.

Here is a weird trigger that I doubt many other people have… I am hugely triggered by the weather.  When there is wind or snow or hail I get completely hypomanic.  I don’t know why.  I do the same thing with helicopters that buzz our house while they are reporting on the traffic.  Or sounds that I can’t easily identify.

Other triggers?  Confrontations.  People being upset.

After I wrote the above paragraphs I went to bed and had significant insomnia, which is another trigger.  And you know I have been talking about noise.  Well, the noise in my head drives me absolutely insane.  It is the clips of music, repeating phrases, hisses and horns.  Like a radio gone wild.

Does that happen to you?